Gifts

7/18/2009 09:47:00 PM Posted In , Edit This 7 Comments »
I have two children .... they are both grown men now. When I became pregnant with our first son, I couldn't believe the joy and excitement I felt. When he was born, it was like a miracle .. he was born 3 weeks early and weighed less than 5 pounds. We named him Andrew, and he was beautiful and amazing. Every single day with him was like a wonderful gift. I was enthralled with everything he did and I was certain I could never love another child like I loved him. Less than 3 years later, I became pregnant again. Once again I felt full of joy and excited anticipation. My husband and I were thrilled, but I must confess, I had just a wee voice in the background that spoke up every now and again saying things like, "this poor child will never be loved as much as Andrew is .... it's just not possible .... you aren't capable of that much love".
Then Ben was born. He was a week early (he was in such a hurry to get here, he was almost born in the car), and while he weighed more than Andrew did at birth, he wasn't very big either - less than 7 pounds. I was knocked over by the wave of love I felt for him from the moment I laid eyes on him. All doubts I had about being able to love another child vanished completely. Three days later he was dying. For two weeks he lay in intensive care at the hospital fighting for his life, but he was a strong little bugger and he recovered fully.
Now we are grandparents. Our little grandson is just over one year old. The love in my heart for that child is every bit as intense and deep as the love I feel for his father and uncle. Every day I think of the three of them - two sons and a grandson, and I know they are the best gifts a person could ever have in an entire lifetime. I am a grateful person, indeed.p.s. Don't forget to leave a comment on the Free Give-away posting for a chance to win the bag of goodies!

7 comments:

Vicki Holdwick said...

What a lovely, touching post. It brought a tear to my eye.

I agree with you completely and love the "doodle".

xoxo

beaner said...

dang it, ma. you're making me misty...
sarah and i were pondering clyde's halloween costume yesterday. she wants him to be an oompa loompa. you're up to the task, right?

Michi Michaelson, Orange County, CA said...

What a BEAUTIFUL memory, Nancy . . . it's WONDERFUL you have it down on your blog and your art! THANK YOU for sharing!!!!!!!

carin.c said...

They are gifts aren't they? I often look at my son and wonder if I could possibly love another child as much as I love him. It's is wonderful to be so blessed with that kind of love.

Leah said...

so touching!! i loved reading about your love for your sons!

funny coincidence. my husband's name is Andrew and he was born premature as well!

Carol said...

What a beautiful and touching post. Your men are very lucky to have you and I bet they are grateful too:)

P.S. Bristol Smooth is a great paper especially for graphite and it doesn't hurt that it's cheap:)

freebird said...

I have to say that as much as I love my grown kids, I seem to enjoy the grandkids more. I think it's because they arent' always around but more because I am allowed to spoil them; it's not my job (beyond reason) to make sure they do everything they should.